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I got a message from some unknown person the other day saying he found my website on twitter and asked me why I hadn’t updated in awhile. I started to think… why haven’t I? Pure laziness I suppose. So today I figured I would give a short re-cap of the recent events. I haven’t updated in over two months.. so I won’t bore you will every detail (assuming anyone really reads this).

The most recent major activity would have to of been CHRISTMAS! It is probably one of my most favorite times of the year. I love the felloship with family and friends, the wonderful unity we all feel, and of course.. the presents. Although, even though Christmas is over.. it isn’t over for me, and probably for many people. Why do I say this? Because all the debt I have acquired from buying people shit. I hope you are all happy. Just kidding, I enjoyed it. I got a few nice things; there is no real reason to go into what all I got. But just know that it was a nice Christmas.

Lately I have been doing a lot of thinking. Thinking usually always gets me into trouble, because I start to think of things that depress me. Such as not having a significant other in my life. I always say that I shouldn’t be thinking about that, and that if it is going to happen, it will. But seriously. I see all these people in a happy relationship and it just sickens me. Not them, personally. Just the fact that I don’t have that. I know that no relationship is perfect and that it isn’t all hugs and kisses all the time. But even still, wouldn’t is be nice to be able to say “Yeah that is him. My boyfriend.” I mean come on now! I have almost given up on even liking people, because as soon as that happens it seems that they go and start liking someone else. I hate it when people seem to show interest in me and then it goes in the COMPLETE and OPPOSITE direction. But of course I can’t fault them. They are just them, and I am me.

I get the “You are adorable, you are so cute and sweet.” Ok.. so if all this is true, why is it so hard for me to find someone? I know I live in a small.. po-dunk town with a limited variety of whom I can date.. but there has to be something. I don’t know anymore.

There have been a few people who I have talked to.. but I mean, they just didn’t work out. I don’t consider myself picky either. Because I am really not. It just has to be someone who is compatible with me. Now, when I saw that there have been a few people, I most certainly do not mean a lot. Like maybe 2? I don’t even think that it has been that many, honestly. Maybe one. Believe me, I tried. I tried multiple times. Because I REALLY wanted it to work out. He was nice, and I tried to like him. But anyways, it just didn’t work out.

But heaven forbid I find someone that I like, because as soon as I start to like them, it turns in the opposite direction. Oh and I might want to add, that I usually don’t start off liking them. I mean, as friends I do. Then MY friends start telling me that I should go for it. That it might be someone who I could be with. Then I start thinking about it, and I start to like the person. As I am writing this, I am sort of laughing. Because thinking about all these different times, yeah that is what happens.

I guess all of my blogs turn into venting rants. I should start actually using this thing for something positive. Telling the positive aspects of my life. My friend I just made recently was venting to me, and asked if there was anything I wanted to share. I said that there was nothing exciting in my life. And there isn’t really. But sharing this would have been kind of what he was venting to me about .

Well, I guess until next time.

Josh

Oh and to the person who was messaging me about my blog, hope you continue reading .