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I think things, and then wonder.. why in the hell do I care? I shouldn’t care about some of the things I worry about. But then there are more things other than that, that make me feel pathetic.

I probably shouldn’t even feel pathetic for my self for this, but I hate feeling sorry for myself, so feeling pathetic seems to be the best next choice.

All of my life I have wanted to be accepted, and I believe that I am accepted by a lot of people. But I thought that was all that I wanted. Now I am starting to realize, I want to be more than just accepted into someone’s life. I want to make an impact, I want them to feel that I am someone that is unlike any other friend they have. I want to feel irreplaceable. Not necessarily be better than anyone, just someone that sticks out in your mind, and makes you think “Hmm, I wonder what they are doing.” I feel like that for so many people, they could just as easily replace me. I don’t feel like one of a kind, no matter how hard I try. I sit and think about all the people who have made such a lasting impression on me, and I wonder if I have done the time to them. I think highly of so many people, and I just wonder if they think the same of me.

I don’t know where any of this is coming from. Well, actually I do, but I guess this thing is too public for that much information. Not that anyone ever actually reads this.