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So I am starting this at 3 in the morning. I should totally be asleep by now. I just had a lovely relaxing day off of work, and tomorrow it is back to the hell hole. Well I suppose it would technically be today, but I don’t consider it the next day until after I wake up. So anyway, I had a friend who pondered as to who actually reads his blogs, and I began thinking the same thing. I am sure that it is like maybe one or two, and that would probably be a little bit of a stretch. A few of my friends have told me that they check up on it from time to time, but with my long pauses between each post, I am sure they loose interest.

But oh well, this is really just my outlet to get out what is in my mind. If someone reads it, then that is fine too.

So far all of my classes are running along smoothly. My grades in my classes are high, and everything is going the way I want it to go. This semester I have Humanities, Spanish, and English. Not a bundle of joy, but not too overbearing. Actually in my Humanities class, I haven’t recieved any grades. She actually sent with us an at home mid-term. Of course, me being the procrastinator that I am, I haven’t even touched it. The only thing I have done is put my name on the top which we had to do before we left the class. I always tell myself that I won’t procrastinate, and that I will do it as soon as I get home. Hah, yeah right. I will probably end up staying up until 3 Wednesday night finishing it. Hopefully not, but history does have a habit of repeating itself.

Anyways, enough about school. I wanna talk about LIFE! Life right now isn’t too shabby. I mean, there isn’t some huge dramatical soap opera being played in my life right now. It is rather boring when you think about it. I started a membership at a gym. I told myself that it is time to get myself into shape. So I have been going there after work usually. Doing a few miled on the treadmill and the stationary bike. It is a nice stress reliever. Tonight I decided to go in there at like 1am and work out for a bit. Of course, the one night that I decide to come in late, someone else decides to come in late. Now, I don’t like working out by myself, but I don’t like working out with people I don’t know. So I was alone, and with these other people I had never seen before. So I kind of shortned my stay. Other than that, there is nothing happening in the relationship department. No new people in my life to speak of.

I suppose this is enough for a nice entry for tonight. Maybe I will think of something else to say, and I will post again sooner.

The title speaks a lot. I starting feeling like shit on Friday, and here is Sunday morning and I still feel like crap. I have been taking Dayquil, Niquil, Sudafed, and blowing my nose non-stop. It is getting old. I am ready for the throbbing in my throat to go away, and for my nose to quit being a spout for snot, and this stupid cough to go away, and for my head to feel normal again. The funny thing is, I didn’t get sick until I thought to myself “Wow, I haven’t gotten sick this year.” because I usually always get sick at least once a year. And then a few days later, WHA BAM! Same thing happened last year. I was talking to my mom and I said “Wow, I haven’t gotten sick yet this year.” and she said “Oh don’t say that, you will end up getting sick tomorrow.” No joke, the next day, I started to feel like shit.
So needless to say, the past couple of days haven’t been great. I only eat and drink because I have to. Nothing more. Food just tastes horrible when you are sick. And of course I know where I probably got it from. As most of you know I work at a grocery store. I handle pretty much all the money. At the end of that cashier’s shift, I touch ALL that money. No telling WHO touched it before them, whether they are nasty or clean. So I most likely got sick from handling that dirty money. I tell yah, I wonder about some of that shit. It is disgusting. So from now on, there will be hand sanitizer near me at all times.So I was looking at a post that I was going to do a couple of days ago, and I was talking about how I only had $2.16 in my bank account. Heh, wow. That was scary. Luckily I have a little more in there now. Not much, but enough to not be scared over. I said “It was because I had to buy those books for school.” But in reality, it is because I shop way too much. I can’t go to the mall without buying something. And I can’t just buy one thing… I have to buy a whole outfit. I buy things that I don’t need. Like I bought two shirts from rue21 and I hate them. But I can’t take them back because I don’t have a receipt and it has most definitely been 30 days. So I think that for right now, I have enough clothes. So I can quit with that portion of my spending. Another big spender is food. Food is essential. Everyone must eat. But what gets me is how much money I spend on food. Working all nights.. and having no time to actually eat anything, fast food is all that is there. Which is why I have put on so much damn weight. I need another plan.Well it is 6am.. and I woke up at 4 and couldn’t go back to sleep. I believe I a starting to feel droopy eyed again, so I think I shall try this whole sleep thing again.

Later. 

Well I don’t understand a lot, obviously. But just recently my parents have thrown me into a state of confusion. I have been saving up for a new apple MacBook for a few months now. Well yesterday I decided that I had saved enough to go ahead and buy it. Last night I was talking to mom about it, and she got totally pissed off because she said she has no idea how much it was going to cost and that if I needed a new laptop I should try and find something cheaper.

Ok, here is how I view Apple computers vs. other computers. The Apple computer I have right now is awesome. Love every bit of it. I am getting a new one, because I am ready for an upgrade, and seriously what is wrong with that. If I were to customize a PC to do all the things like I want, that would be the equivalent of an Apple, I would pay probably the same amount. But an Apple computer is what I wanted, so that is what I got.

Now what confuses is me, is they are furious with me, because I spent that much money. Ok.. one question.. WHO’S MONEY WAS IT!?!?!

My money. I earned it, no one gave it to me. I didn’t ask for any money. I mean what am I making money for if I can’t buy what I want with it? I could have spent a lot more money, but I sacrificed a few details of the computer so I wouldn’t spend so much. They can SERIOUSLY get over it, since it is done, and there is nothing them or I can do about it. If they would like for me to send it back, all they need to do is give me about $140 for the re-stocking fee that I was informed that Apple has. But.. that won’t happen, because I am not sending it back.

I think they main reason they are mad is because they told me I needed to keep at least $1000 in my savings account, in case something happened to my car and it needed repairs. Well right now, only thing I really need is new tires.. and I have the money for that, or I will in a couple of weeks. What they don’t realize is that I am young, I like new things, and I have money right now, and I am still making money, so it doesn’t bother me to spend that much money, because I know that it wont take long to make it again. I mean, what is the use in having a lot of money if you don’t spend it? It would be as worthless as having no money at all.

I am done.

So I stay busy all the time. It is unreal how I have had no time for anything lately. This past week I have had a small break from my hectic schedule, but the week went by so fast, I am not sure where it all went. It was spring break, so I had a break from my usual Monday, Wednesday, Friday, going to class, but that all ends Monday. I have a 4 to 5 page paper due Wednesday on a visit to the court house that I took. I had to observe a courtroom as cases were being tried. It was actually very interesting. I have never witnessed actual cases being presented, and it was a very fast paced environment. It was really all “State vs. Someone” and the Prosecuting side was on top of things. Firm arguments, and totally kicking ass. So I have started on that paper, and I already have a page, so that is GREAT! I am not even to the good parts. So in other news, my job sucks. I feel like I have to tip toe around everyone so people wont get mad at me. But seriously, this is a competitive world, and people are going to strive to get to the top. These people take things way too personally, and I do have to admit, that I take things way too personally also, but I truly do hate for anyone to be mad at me. My job as a bookkeeper does make me accountable for the front end. Meaning, that the cashiers, baggers and such are a bit of my responsibility also. But, these baggers and cashiers think that I am being bossy, and thinking that I am better than them. Explaining to them my job and what is expected of me probably wouldn’t make them think of it any differently. They are all set in their thinking that I am a bitch, and I have changed. Well, I guess that is what was expected of me from them, therefore they think that of me, when it is quite the other way around. Everyone has changed towards me, because they believe that I am going on a power trip.. DING DONG folks, I have no power.Everything else is rather dull and boring. Planning to hang out with anyone is next to impossible. I work weird hours, and they are always at night, so I have very few nights that I can just chill. But next Saturday, as long as I get this day off, my friend Misty is having herself a house warming party, so yeah, hopefully I will be able to have fun then.Until next time… 

I won’t keep trying if it appears you aren’t trying either. Yeah that’s all I have for that one.

In other news, this weekend I have had the house to myself, but have I been able to enjoy it? NO! Work, work work! That is all I do. Thursday was my only real day off, I had asked someone if they wanted to do something.. but.. ehh. So I just stayed at home with mom and dad and we had a nice little dinner. Last Monday I got a car.. I now drive a 1999 Green Ford Explorer Sport. I love it, and so do all of my friends. I feel so much better driving this car as opposed to the rinky dink Bronco.

Things have been going pretty good lately. New car, income taxes came back, raise came in. I most definitely can’t complain. Even with some of the downs that I have experienced the past few weeks, I am going to act like it didn’t happen, and live my life the the fullest. I have been told by a few people that I shouldn’t let things get to me like I have been letting them, and I have just now really started taking that to heart. I don’t want people to take advantage of me, and I want people to like me for who I am, and not who I try to be. There are plenty of people out there who do, and I don’t have to try so hard for them to be my friend. So in other words, if you like me, great, I probably think of you as a great friend, but if for any reason you don’t like me, I am not going to loose any sleep over it.

There are a few people who I would like to speak my mind to, but in all reality, I wonder if it is even worth it, and most likely, it isn’t.

Until next time…

Waking up this  morning at 7 am and being at work by 8. I really do not like this schedule. I really much rather work nights. Although I complain about it all the time, I am the kind of person who likes to stay up late, and sleep late. Of course this morning I wake up with a stuffy nose and not really feeling 100%. Oh well, there is no calling out for me. The past few days have been rather rough mentally for me. I have just not really been feeling like my bubbly self. But today is a new day, maybe I will see things differently. I have more to say I suppose, but I guess it will have to wait until I get home. 

So I have completed my first week as a bookkeeper. I think it all went fairly well. I have caught on to everything. This past night, well it is 2 something in the morning on Thursday, but I am going to consider it still as the night. You know what I mean. Anyways, tonight was the first night that I was a bookkeeper by myself. I really think that I did REALLLLLY good. I am catching on to everything, knowing when to do things, and it is actually becoming a fun job.

But lately I have been having a lot of problems with friends. Everyone seems to want to all of a sudden be a bitch. But you know what? I don’t want to deal with that drama, so I don’t. If people want to be friends with me, they are going to have to act civilized. There was on friend who was mad at me for silly reasons, but she changed her mind apparently, which I am happy about, because she was the only one I bought a christmas present for so far. I haven’t had any time to go out and go shopping, it is rather depressing.  But I gave her her present early, and she LOVED it! So that made me happy. It is always nice getting someone something and they love it. But my other problems, well I really don’t even want to put that out there, because I have told all who I think would care, and the person it pertains to knows already.

Well it is 2 in the morning.. I shall go to bed now

Josh

Ok, so lately I have been spending money like it is going out of style. Last night, I did a late night trip to Wal Mart and spent $43. What did I buy? JUNK! I went in there for a can of compressed air, chapstick, and deodorant. Well I came out with the chapstick, and the deodorant, but NO COMPRESSED AIR! That was really my main reason for wanting to go. Want to know what I ended up buying?

I bought all of that, – the can of air.. PLUS a whole lot of groceries. a;lkfjl;skdjg;lskdjg;lsdkjfg;sru;glsdkfjg I can’t believe myself.

Anyways, went to school today.. had math and public speaking. Another day, that I didn’t have to present my speech. I am liking this. I really don’t want to have to present my speech, but I know I will have to on Monday. But they had some really cool topics. This one girl did hers on homosexuals adopting children. She was all for it, and I loved it. I told her when she sat down that I really enjoyed her speech. I really hope that she gets a good grade. I am still pretty nervous about mine.

So I got home today, and what did I find?!?! My new wireless keyboard! Sooo happy. It is awesome. But right now I am not using it. I am using my regular keyboard. I don’t know why. I guess because I haven’t gotten used to the keys yet, so I still want to use this one for right now. It will take me a couple of days. But the more that I type on it, the better i will get. I just wanted to hurry and finish this.

Well I am uber tired, so I think I am going to lay down and see if I can sleep some of this tiredness off. Hopefully I can stay warm.

Later,

Josh

I didn’t know what to title this, so I just went with the title of the song I was listening to. So I really don’t update this enough. I really want to be able to look back at this in like 5 years and know what I was doing and such. So I am going to try and update it more often.

So today, I woke up at like 11, because I didn’t go to bed till about 2:30. I wanted to go to bed at 10, but I think since the past couple of nights I have been staying up late because of a damn public speaking project, my sleep schedule is off. Luckily I am done with that. So, I woke up, took a shower, and mom and I went out to lunch. Went to a Chinese restaurant. It wasn’t that great. I paid though. Mom and I switch off on paying for lunch. Since this was a cheap bill, I gladly offered.

Now I am here, at home, laying in bed. I have to work at 4. Cashier though, so shouldn’t be too bad. Hopefully this weekend I can go party.

Oh and there is this one thing.. that is eating at me. But I guess I will discuss that one on here when the time is right. Or maybe it is something that I should just keep to myself.

Josh

So this weekend or my “Birthday Weekend” has been AWESOME! I have AMAZING friends who know how to make someone’s 19th birthday a very special one.

Friday, after school, Tara took me to Applebee’s and we had a great lunch, and desert. Then we met up with Abby and headed over to Sabbrina’s house, and hung out there. We just had a great time because they are all fun and great to be around. I stayed over at Tara’s house, and well I just have to say I had a blast.

Then Kristen came over, we picked up Shaye, and headed to Atlantic Station, where we met up with my favorites, Kevin and Billy. We walked around stupidly for a bit, and decided to go eat at the Spaghetti Factory which was GREAT! I had a great time with them. Thanks to Kristen for driving us up there, and you are a great friend. She gave me a very sweet photo album with lovely pictures of us in there.

So far, that sums it up. Going to church with mom tomorrow, and I might be going off with Kevin afterwards. Not sure though. I guess he needs to finish “debating”.

I stressed over this weekend for a while, and I ended up having a great time. All I need is my friends and I can find fun in almost anything.